What Will You Do With Your Fresh Page?

Happy New Year 2017 Tori Kayson

A Fresh Slate

Happy New Year! 

Ya’ll know that I’m not a big New Year’s resolutionist. And I’m not a huge fan of change, either. I tend to eat the same meals every week, go to bed at the same time every night (even on the weekends), and write from the same desk every day. I’m not one of those writers who can pick up my laptop and head to a coffee shop. Generally I prefer my quiet routine.

For twelve and a half years Bruiser, our golden retriever, shared it with me, but we lost our sweet baby around Halloween last year. The rascal had been my shadow for so long, the loss left me reeling.


Bruiser, my constant shadow, my faithful companion

No more stink eye when his food dish wasn’t filled on time. No more warning dinner guests not to leave a napkin on their lap because the sneak would circle the table in stealth mode, then swipe it or snag food from a hand, lightning-quick. No more huffs of frustration when we told him to go back to sleep, that it wasn’t time to wake up yet.

Bruiser grew up as a playmate to our two sons, then considered himself an only child when they moved on.


He was my fierce protector, yet the big lug cowered in our walk-in shower during thunderstorms and fireworks. Wherever we went, he wanted to go too, and two-thirds of the back seat belonged to him, didn’t matter if someone was already sitting in that spot. And elevators? Forget it! The first time he rode in one, he landed, belly on the floor, all four legs stretched out, and we never enticed him into another one. Bruiser was full of personality.


The fierce ache of loss hasn’t diminished and the tears still catch me off-guard. I just keep telling myself to cherish the memories and one day I’ll see that sweet, joyful, mischievous face again in heaven, and catch a whiff of his bad doggie breath. 🙂

But life marches on, doesn’t it? That flip to January on the calendar marks a new year, a fresh slate, a new beginning. It’s time to get back to writing. To carve out a new routine. But now, instead of my companion snoring softly behind me in the office, I’ll have to be content with the wildlife that meander across our back yard.

What changes will you make this year?
Happy New Year!
“Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new beginning.” ~Carl Bard

6 thoughts on “What Will You Do With Your Fresh Page?

  1. Aw…what a wonderful tribute to Bruiser, Tori. I loved all of the photos! ❤ What a great life he had with you and your family. He was one lucky dog!
    As for your routine…we’ve got to be related. I’m exactly the same. I could never write in a coffee shop, I’d be too busy people watching.
    I’m not a fan of change either, but by the end of 2016, I realized some changes need to be made. I’m working on those. Have a great day and don’t forget to get your bread and milk in preparation for the big snow! xo

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    • Sisters in spirit. ❤
      Best wishes for incorporating those changes this year, sweet friend. I’ll be praying for you. 💕
      Yikes, I forgot the milk and bread! 😂

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    • I don’t know about the new puppy, Sandy. Not sure I’m ready for that…
      But I’m with you on trying to get back in the rhythm of writing. Not setting any records, but my tush is in the chair. 😂
      Good for you on meeting your goals!


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